i do not understand how i’ve fallen back into checking this site?
it’s a lot less toxic now that i’ve unfollowed almost everyone/thing except extremely close friends and illustration blogs but i still despise this website and need to cut the cord i just can’t bring myself to delete a blog ive had since the seventh grade
theres probably a chrome extension that stops you from opening a tab w a particular website ill look into it its really more of a reflex at this point i think i just need to break the cycle
honestly beyond shit for work like my portfolio and upwork profile i dont want any social media presence at all
part of this was a pact with my girlfriend that i wouldnt go near facebook for any reason for my own mental health and ive held to that ever since but she promised she would do the same and hasn’t and it makes me feel gross honestly i just havent seen a reason to bring it up….
either way i think me reflexively opening a tumblr tab while i wait for something more important to load is a bad precedent and i have to break that habit especially because i feel like it’s probably encouraged her to start going back to doing that too and i know she still follows/is followed by a bunch of augusta people i want nothing to do with and dont wanthave any access to our lives in any regard it’s all just very fucking poisonous for me and i dont want any part of it
